Sunday, 4 July 2010

Final Blog Entry

Hey

It has now been nearly 3 months since I finished my chemotherapy and entered remission. I was meant to write this entry ages ago but havent got round to it. Since my last entry I have done lots of things. I completed the Hull 10k for Teenage Cancer Trust alongside 25 of my family and friends. Together we raised more than £3000 for the new Teenage Cancer Trust ward that will be built in Hull.

A couple of weeks ago I had the Matthew Woollias Charity ball which raised money for the Teenage Cancer Trust, 134 people attended the ball and the night was a huge success. The most nerve racking moment was my thank you speech, just before the speech two of my friends had to calm me down because I was that nervous. However once I got the speech out of the way the whole night was really good and we have raised £2700 for the Teenage Cancer Trust from the evening.

On the same day as the ball my charity football team Matts Legends FC took on Next Kingston unfortunately we lost 5-4 but again raised £150 for the Teenage Cancer Trust.

I have also been on holiday to Newquay with some friends and it was really nice to get away and forget Hull and Leeds and hospital check ups for a week.

I had my first remission check up about 2 weeks ago and thankfully i got the all clear again. Although I am on the road to recovery I still find things tough sometime. Most days I am fine and if I keep myself busy im very happy. Sometimes however I just feel angry inside not for long just for a moment I will feel frustrated and annoyed with the last year. I think why has this happened, even though ive gone into remission you still think what if it comes back? what long term effects will the chemo have? and why do I have one leg at 21 years old.

I know I have to try not to think about it but thats easier said than done. Dont get me wrong most of the time im happy and things are great but every now and again I get frustrated and angry. Im sure with time these thoughts will fade and the frustration will ease.

What I will say though is the last year had made me grow up a lot and see the world in a different perspective. I have to feel lucky and privelged that I have won the battle, there are people that dont. There is always someone worse off than you and thats what stops me feeling sorry for myself to much.

This last year has been one hell of a ride but ive survived and its time to get on with my life.

Hopefully you wont here from this blog again

Thanks for all the support

Matt

Friday, 23 April 2010

LAST CHEMO

I had my las chemo about 10 days ago. Its a weird but good feeling that after 11 months I have finally finished. My chemo was rubbish as usual I was real ill and felt awful. I had a chest xray as a final check up and it was all clear so I am now in remission. I am happy about this but it is very wierd finishing. I wish I could be all done and back to normal but I still look ill. I just want my hair back. I know after a year of all ive been through the loss of hair shouldnt seem a big thing but it is to me. I dont look the same person I have become very self concious.

Over the summer I have big plans. I have a month of celebrations then im going on holiday with the lads. Then I move out and then im on holiday with the family. I cant wait. I will publish a final blog in a couple of weeks,

Thursday, 25 March 2010

Chemotherapy 13

I have now had 13 sessions of chemotherapy! I have coped alot better with this one than I did the one before. The doctor has sorted my anti sickenss and it has kept my sickness to a mininum. I now have 20 days until its finished, yes chemo will be over no more I am ridiculously excited!!!

It is going to be weird going back to a life of normality. Im not really sure how I am going to feel but I am looking forward to it. I will shortly be announcing were you can all sponsor me if you would like. Im doing the Hull 10k in May with friends and family and the next blog post will be about that.

Ill hopefully keep my chin up over the next few weeks and keep smiling :) I hate it when I get all down and morbid. BRING ON SUMMER!!!

Tuesday, 9 March 2010

The last year in short

I have been feeling fed up and grumpy recently so I have decided to write a poem about the last 10 months and place it on this blog:

Ten months of Hell
The battles been long
Im still here fighting
Standing tall and strong
All the chemo pumped in me
Has made me so weak
Still its been worth it
The future could have been bleak
Amputation was hard
I was down and depressed
Then came the news
The tumour was dead
Now treatment is finished
Its time to recover
Live life to the max
This journey has been like no other
Hope you like it
Matt

Wednesday, 3 March 2010

Post Chemotherapy 12

I have now had 12 sessions of chemotherapy and I have 2 sessions left. I was really ill with this chemo couldnt stop been sick for 24 hours it got that bad I was given a drug called Nozinan which knocked me out for a fair few hours. I felt terrible which mentally drained me to and I just kept thinking "WHY WHY WHY". 12 months ago my main concerns was how I would fund my next night out not all the shit that comes with having cancer. The only thing keeping me going mentally is the fact I only have two sessions of chemo left. Anymore and I think i could just about cry. But I wont dont want to show signs of weakness when i am so near the end.

Regarding me false leg all things are good I can even run now which is fantastic. Ive kind of hit a brick wall with the physio as my chemo is stopping me getting fit again and taking up running. Once chemo finishes I will be hitting the gym.

Tuesday, 9 February 2010

3 chemos to go!!!!

I have just finished my 11th session of gruelling chemotherapy. I felt really bad when having this session worst ive ever felt on chemotherapy. I was sick a couple of times and felt sick most of the time i was in hospital. I came out of hospital on sunday and hopefully will be home for 3 weeks. On better news I got a new fitting for my leg which has made my limp virtually disappear and I should be learning to run again over the next few weeks.

Recently I have been growing increasingly frustrated and angry with well EVERYTHING!!!!! The cancer, the chemo, the false leg, the worrying about catching a cold and now im on the final lap of my treatment I am just looking towards the end and wish the end of treatment was here now. Then life can go back to some sense of normality. I think the frustration boils down to that im near the end but I want the end now and as the chemo is making me feel worse each time that doesnt help with the angry feeling inside me. Its like I want to see cancer as a human form look it straight in the eye and punch it down to the ground, whereas the battle I have faced has been alot more brutal and I have become weaker with every batch of chemo.

Thursday, 14 January 2010

12 weeks and counting!!!!

I have fought many battles in the last year and i am now entering the final stages of my fight against cancer. I have won every battle and fought against all that Ewings has thrown at me and now there are 4 more chemos left and i can just see the light at the end of a very long tunnel. I can now see my life beyond cancer and chemotherapy I can plan things that dont revolve around hospital appointments and all this must be a good thing.

I have just finished my 10th sessions of body destroying chemotherapy and had a flu jab to. Ive been sorting out the tickets for my ball to and will be selling them this month. I also have my post chemo beating cancer celebration sorted and that will be a weekend in Newcastle. I cannot wait load of my friends have said they are coming to and we have nearly booked out a hotel its also on FA Cup final day so all day drinking is on order i reckon.

Wednesday, 6 January 2010

Beginning of a good year!!!!

Happy New Year to everyone

2009 is finally over and 2010 has begun. I have 5 chemotherapy sessions left then thats my treatment over and hopefully fingers crossed I wont need treatment for Ewings again. I have been doing well with my physio to and the next stage will be to start light jogging. However the fitting of my leg is not right at the moment due to my swelling shrinking. I am hopefully getting a refitting this month meaning I can start running again. I need to start my training for the 10k run im doing in May for the Teenage Cancer Trust.

I also want to add that 2009 was without saying a difficult year and I would like to thank everyone who was there to support me and who continue to support me through the next few months. A special thanks to my Dad Paul and Mum Margaret for all the hospital appointments they have attended with me and physio appointments they have taken me to.