3 chemos to go!!!!

I have just finished my 11th session of gruelling chemotherapy. I felt really bad when having this session worst ive ever felt on chemotherapy. I was sick a couple of times and felt sick most of the time i was in hospital. I came out of hospital on sunday and hopefully will be home for 3 weeks. On better news I got a new fitting for my leg which has made my limp virtually disappear and I should be learning to run again over the next few weeks.

Recently I have been growing increasingly frustrated and angry with well EVERYTHING!!!!! The cancer, the chemo, the false leg, the worrying about catching a cold and now im on the final lap of my treatment I am just looking towards the end and wish the end of treatment was here now. Then life can go back to some sense of normality. I think the frustration boils down to that im near the end but I want the end now and as the chemo is making me feel worse each time that doesnt help with the angry feeling inside me. Its like I want to see cancer as a human form look it straight in the eye and punch it down to the ground, whereas the battle I have faced has been alot more brutal and I have become weaker with every batch of chemo.