Final Blog Entry

Hey

It has now been nearly 3 months since I finished my chemotherapy and entered remission. I was meant to write this entry ages ago but havent got round to it. Since my last entry I have done lots of things. I completed the Hull 10k for Teenage Cancer Trust alongside 25 of my family and friends. Together we raised more than £3000 for the new Teenage Cancer Trust ward that will be built in Hull.

A couple of weeks ago I had the Matthew Woollias Charity ball which raised money for the Teenage Cancer Trust, 134 people attended the ball and the night was a huge success. The most nerve racking moment was my thank you speech, just before the speech two of my friends had to calm me down because I was that nervous. However once I got the speech out of the way the whole night was really good and we have raised £2700 for the Teenage Cancer Trust from the evening.

On the same day as the ball my charity football team Matts Legends FC took on Next Kingston unfortunately we lost 5-4 but again raised £150 for the Teenage Cancer Trust.

I have also been on holiday to Newquay with some friends and it was really nice to get away and forget Hull and Leeds and hospital check ups for a week.

I had my first remission check up about 2 weeks ago and thankfully i got the all clear again. Although I am on the road to recovery I still find things tough sometime. Most days I am fine and if I keep myself busy im very happy. Sometimes however I just feel angry inside not for long just for a moment I will feel frustrated and annoyed with the last year. I think why has this happened, even though ive gone into remission you still think what if it comes back? what long term effects will the chemo have? and why do I have one leg at 21 years old.

I know I have to try not to think about it but thats easier said than done. Dont get me wrong most of the time im happy and things are great but every now and again I get frustrated and angry. Im sure with time these thoughts will fade and the frustration will ease.

What I will say though is the last year had made me grow up a lot and see the world in a different perspective. I have to feel lucky and privelged that I have won the battle, there are people that dont. There is always someone worse off than you and thats what stops me feeling sorry for myself to much.

This last year has been one hell of a ride but ive survived and its time to get on with my life.

Hopefully you wont here from this blog again

Thanks for all the support

Matt